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I WISH I'D LIVE After my morning prayer,on my bed with a pillow under my head I lie straight, death is what I wait As I have AIDS Life is dull in this room I ponder over how I got AIDS & from whom Though I have a beautiful wife but I can't account for other women in my life I wonder who did this to me, who could it be? for there were casual relatioships with women I really didn't know as these relationships were never meant to grow I went around with someone I didn't belong and that's where I went wrong I was unfaithful to my wife I played the fool with not only mine but also her life I was untrue & now there's nothing I can do. My mind is in a state of stir as I have infected her I'm dying I know, if she dies too, how will my kids grow? who'll look after them, they'd be like a broken stem from a tree which dried up due to lack of care and that wouldn't be fair. They'll be neglected & feel rejected but that's the truth, I'm ill I cast it on me, on my free will & my poor wife she's not to blame ,I put her to shame I know I'm going to lose everything that's my own but till I live,I know there's lots I can give ADVICE whatever you do think twice I know the disarray, that I'm in today It was meant to be kept away I know it was the club,the party & the wine that's left me to pine on who was it that did this to me I was blinded by it all so I couldn't see whether she had eyes blue,black or brown but she sure brought me down to the level I'm right now I curse myself - why did I allow? Allow her to rule my thoughts & entangle my life into knots, I could never untie & merely casted away to die Now look at me, my life is a total waste although life has rich ingredients, but I've lost taste In the end when I linger on, all I can say is don't be me but think of me when I'm gone. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This
poem is based on a true story a young man of 35 told me Ms.Karuna
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